At first I hated this song, but I'm starting to relate to it. Argh, break my heart, heartbreaker.
Things poping in my brain.
It's coming to a end, the year.
We meet, we become friends. But everything is going to end, tomorrow we are strangers again.
Will it be too late? To say I miss you, when this feelings are gone. Will it be insincere?
Even if I hadn't know you for a long time. You are leaving too soon, why? Why do you choose to leave selfishly like that. Don't you know about the people that relies on you? But.. I can't ask you to stay either. Tomorrow, we are strangers again. I miss you.
Infatuation, it's insane. You are a mysterious person.
Let's get moving, stop!
I don't know anymore.
It's not about one person, but time... time is moving too quickly. Please stop. I want to know you better, I want you to know me better before you leave.
I can't bear the fact that someone like you.. is going to leave. I really like you..
So many people are leaving..
If the wind of fate, let us meet again.. Let's be friends again, okay?
sorry sheeleng I didn't reply your previous comment.. I read it but forgot to reply.. I keep doing this.. I think people are getting irritated. But I didn't mean it..
This will be the last post on this blog. Shutting it down.
.
It makes me insecure.
Cause I know.. Now I'm different right?
euhyukhyukhyukhyk
I really just wanted to write that..
Today is a okay day. I don't know why, but I always feel ease when I'm around my store manager.. The most senior one..
I think she's called store manager, asst. store manager and etc..
Ah~~
I feel really comfortable working with her.
I've been late this few rounds..So shameful, I will buck up!
Today was good since there wasn't much people, kinda slack you know.
oh right, i wanted to write about this.
nb, three days ago I saw jolyn tan and she didn't regonize me.
Oh right, now I'm listening to wincy's playlist on her blog.
Everytime I would stay on her blog for hours just listening to her playlist, it's great!
Just wanted to let you guys know how detached I felt to you guys and wondered if it was normal..
anyway.
With all my love, I am ending my post.
I just wanted to write that.
^^
OMG.
OMG.
I just had to write that twice.
OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.
I asked myself, if I could call myself unlucky. Well, if things goes wrong, you can always blame it on coincidence, the wind.. or even the weather.
So yes, I am UNLUCKY.
Yesterday,
I remembered the timing for the doc,
8.30 - 12.30
2.00 - 4.30
7.00 - ??
So I went at 2.30.
BLOODY HELL. If that kind of timing is not confusing enough.....
I saw it closed and read the wordings below..
WEDNESDAY
2-4.30
CLOSED.
BLOOOOODY HELLLLLL.. Why only on wednesdays?!!?!??!?!?!
Anyway, that's cool. I went home, slept and woke up.
It's was 8.25..
Oh, where's my paper?!
* proceeds to look for it for the next 20mins thinking in my head, the clinic close at 10 right? *
845, walks down. Look at man closing the door of clinic.
HOLY MOTHERPLUCKER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
STUPID SHIT.
anyways, it's ok, I thought. I'll just come tomorrow.
So, today....
I woke up at 8, forced myself not to go to the toliet to even brush my teeth or bath so I won't pee.
Rushed to the doctor with the most stupid face ever, and saw my female, omg so pretty manager!!!!
SO EMBARRASING. It doesn't help that my hair looks like a cat has been on it.
Looked at the timing..
it says 9 - 12.30.
Oh, I'm early.
I waited at the coffee shop for 20mins.
It was 8.40. There are 2 patients inside, looks like I've been wasting time sitting at the coffeeshop doing nothing.
Showed them the slip for urine test, and they told me..........
Oh, the date on it is for tomorrow.. so it's not valid.
MOTHER. PLU. KER.
MOTHER PLUCKER..........
MOTHERMOTHER MOTHERRRRRR.
It's all because I told my manager the day before yesterday, "tomorrow i sure go one."
That's why she wrote the date....
why does everythng coincidently go so unsmooth?
OMG.... The worse thing ever is seeing the most pretty manager EVER.
I think that tanya chua and kit chan is super zai!!!
omg~~~? SO YEPPO.
I forgot there's such things like singapore singers. I totally love that kind of carefree style that she gave off in this MV.Singers are so controlled this days, it's so freaking boring.
MuuuU~~~
just now during work, I keep saying sorry, mate and sorry, man! omg, am I cowboy or something?
this is NOT happening..
I'm so freaking patriotic~
And I just realized how random I get in every post.
Oh, maybe it's because I drank milk yesterday~
ARE YOU READING MY BLOG?!
I totally think that people who are not supposed to read my blog is totally reading it~!!!!!
LIKE, my colleagues. But they totally can't find my blog... RIGHT?
Tell me that I'm just super paranoid about everything.
BUT WHAT IF THEY ARE REALLY READING IT?!
And, oh yeah. The thai curry chicken at changi airport terminal 3 foodcourt is really nice. I want to go back there soon.
With much loves~
I ended this post with total randomness.
I'm feeling like I will explode in depression.
But sadness is a mild, calm feeling isn't it?
OMG.
and I don't even get why I'm feelin' like this. What's there to be feeling depressed?
And I'm feeling so bored.
but I feel like exploding, but there's nothing to explode.
the nothingness is killing me.
if I'm angry, it'll feel so much better.
I don't know what his saying but this track sounds so nice.
That's really a mysterious question.
I went out with meiyu, i guess. So, it was fun. But I lost my mp4 and I'm depressed over that.
After sleeping at 6am last night, I'm super tired but my boss called me to work cause there was a lack of people.
I wonder if it's cause of the numbing pain from the pierced ear, or was it the mp4, or the tiredness.. I was totally pissed off at everything during work today, and I think my boss thinks i'm crazy cause i kept sighing.
It doesn't help when I said, I need to give more excuses for my bad behavior today.
And it doesn't help that I am totally weird.
WTF?! I totally don't know how to feel.
Should I be depressed? But I totally feel pissed at the same time. And tired. And kind of glad that manager was nice. But kind of doubtful whether female managers likes me (afterall, she looks super cold?) ._.
......
and alittle glad that I don't have work tomorrow. ER.
Don't know how I feel today.
Edit:
OMG. my brother is totally unreasonable.
Brother: You got see my phone?
Me: ya, at the kitchen.
Brother: why at the kichen?!??!?!
Me: how i know, jut now i go toliet then i saw at the kitchen.
Brother: I cannot find leh, help me find leh. BLAH BLAH BLAH ( using a diginified tone like i'm supposed to help him)
Still come and tap my shoulder voiently. And talk loudly like I owe him like that.
Wtf, sorry i'm not your maid so you can stfu. :D
Family may be important, but, how important really...
I was wondering why love seemed so important.
maybe it was because of epik high, the sentence
Infatuation to love
Now you're my whole entire world"
It really... is just a infatuation isn't it?
Love.. is really just a infatuation. In the end, it's nothing really. The thing that makes people stick, is the connection. Something to lean and believe in.
I was thinking about it.
maybe it was because I read in a website saying that a gay really really liked another guy and she really wants them to be happy..
Does the sex really matter?
I mean, afterall.. love is about the connection right?
Something to lean on and believe in.
Or maybe it was I was thinking about the people I really admired,
Like Tasha. Or like my female manager, whom perfume smells really nice and has a really mysterious character. Just like jaejoong.. that kind of cold character, that kind of character that smokes and look bad.. But then are really so gentle but then gets hot tempered sometimes. but even when they get angry, they look cute.
this kind of people are so very charismatic.
So I was thinking, maybe this is the kind of people that I will fall in love with.
But... if there was a chance, would I really want to marry jaejoong?
I thought about that, and the answer was no, Because even though, there is this fatal attraction that I have for him.. He really.. is just a inperfect human being isn't it?
Infact, he is just another human. Even though.. he has a beautiful mysterious character, even though he kills me.. It doesn't means that he will connect to me, right?
The idea is the connection, so.....
Why should I subject myself, to liking him because of his character..
So simply put, I have a serious crush on youngwoung jaejoong, but give me sometime... It will change. Because one day, he wouldn't be my support.
But then again, this few years, when I really leaned on the idea of him. Was this what love felt like? I wonder.
Infatuation, the moment, the months, the years. The kind of feeling, will I die for him? I will love him forever..
The kind of feeling that fades, isn't it superficial?
Is the real kind of love, connection and continuous support? Or is there really truth to love at all.
So then again, why does divorcing mean so much. It's just a seperation, we don't link anymore, we don't help each other to live day after day... I hate you.
So, why do people still wanna stay together?
I don't understand the media, that emphasis so much about everlasting love.
I don't understand the people, that believes the media, emphasising so much on love.
I don't understand the people that forces other people to say, I love you.
I don't understand why I feel so infatuated with you, jaejoong-sii. My imaginary character, my delicious idol. You don't even exist. But why, when I think about you, it feels like you've always been there. Somebody I knew, but left.
Somebody that was really close to me, but disappeared. The blissful and familar kind of feeling.
It makes me wonder why because you don't even exist.
Truth js , you are nothing but you have been my support. I don't understand it at all.
Drunken Tiger - Monster (Feat. Rakka, Roscoe Umali, T, and Rakim)
Tasha and jk tiger is married btw.
Drunken Tiger & Tasha - True Romance
Recently I've been listening to map the soul by epik high worldwide ver.
MYK]
I remember my first glimpse of her face
I saw you smile then I smiled
I was straight blown away
Mesmerized by your beauty from your feet to your hands
How can one be so beautiful? l don't understand
Heaven-sent, God's gift without a doubt in my mind
Sometimes I wonder why our paths decided to collide
We started off as perfect strangers
Boy meets girl
Infatuation to love
Now you're my whole entire world
Destiny taps me on the back saying hello
But really it was your touch knowing I'd never let you go
Then you spoke
I never heard a voice so sweet
Heavenly, and from her words I knew this girl was deep just like me
With times to worry and times to play we'll sit and stress over life or just burn the day away
I know for sure in our past lives we had to be friends, living and dying together knowing that we would meet again
It's just a blessing to have you in my life
I was destined to be with you
I'm priveilged
So amazing
No question
And I'm knowing soon enough we'll get where we're going
Just thinking about it, I can feel my heart growing
Am I trippin' Or is it that I finally see?
I don't know
But my heart is saying you're the one for me
Please believe me
I'm exactly where I want to be
This rhyme is written from my heart to you sincerely
[Chorus]
No reason to live without you
No reason to live without you
No reason to live without you
No reason to live without you
[Tablo]
You turn a cocooned soul into a butterfly
And I lose control
Can never turn aside
You shine like summer skies
Like when a lover lies next to me and says to me
"You make me wonder why"
You are a beautiful mystery
Every note carved into musical history
A simile
A metaphor
Words not enough to entrust to you
Trust that it's true
We must have a clue
But we ask for evidence, dwell in passing setiments though we bask in eminence
Every moment every day busy, getting paid away, the soul fades away into a grainy shade of gray
I pray that you listen to what I say
Cause I feel like a missing shoe
This is to everything that you are
The wild earth, a child's birth, Sun, Moon, and the stars
[Chorus]
No reason to live without you
No reason to live without you
No reason to live without you
No reason to live without you
[Kero One]
So I ask
"What would I be without you"
Like stevie without wonder, hunger without food, a sheep without a shepherd, asleep without your message
Despite the skeptics in the end you were true
And I knew that there was more to life
And I grew living for the light
I took my answers, combined them with yours
It made life exciting but it closed some doors
Word to Christ
My life accelerated then deflated, sunk to bottom then elevated until I made it
But you always had my back though
When kids threw rocks at me or on stage rappin'
Still I see kids without love
It brings tears to my soul
But why they always drop up?
The world's gone bonkers
You've conquered fear
And as long as I believe You're the reason I'm here
[Chorus]
No reason to live without you
No reason to live without you
No reason to live without you
No reason to live without you
[Outro]
L O V E you
I was made to be with you, made to be with you, made to be with you
Selfish? No way I'm going to use that negetive word on myself.
I am simply enlightened. :)
There's no one to trust, everybody is superficial. Only my relationship with myself is real.
I am the best ever, man.
I'm so shocked and all..
Jaesuchun is sueing sm?! Wtf........ What is going to happen to dbsg?
Somehow, when I wrote that, I felt like i'm watching a drama.
Today was a okay day. I'm cashiering alone now.
I came home all tired, singing soeliem, soeliem. Then looked up at my 2009 calendar and said hello to my youngwong jaeboo.
When wincy told me that members are having their solo activities.. Honestly, I was shocked. I was more shocked that changmin is acting. WHAT?! Seriously? That boy doesn't do solo things, remember? Even dance, sm don't let him dance~
And well, I'm not that active in dong bang news anymore.
And I came home, opened sharingyoochun.. AND WHAT?!
Jaesuchun is sueing sm.
LIKE....
WHAT THE...
I've only been inactive for a few months and they are sueing sm?!
Actually,
I don't really like dongbang in sm anyways. But then again, we know how big sm is. And if they really break their contract.
The question is... are they going to renew with SM?
If they don't, will ho and min follow suit?
like omg, if there is no ho and min... there is no tohoshinki..
I'm really afraid of this, what if tohoshinki breaks up..
Even if tohoshinki doesn't break up, they leave the company after min and ho finishes their drama.. and join another company,
Will they get as much exposure as before? Will they be like shinhwa? Shinhwa is still together, but they are doing alot of solo activities, and their popularity is seriously going down.
And GENRE.
Will they continue to produce songs like how they are releasing in japan? Because, honestly, I don't hear much of the new songs.
I don't like it.
Yes, I don't like it. It's different already, the kind of passion and emotion.. it's really different now... even though it's so perfect.. it's not the tohoshinki I love.. However, It was revived again when I heard the way U are, hug and balloon in mirotic concert.
Anyway, I hope that Dong bang shin ki will quickly tell us what is going to happen next and stop letting crazy fangirls cry.
Some songs never get old.
MY FAVOURITE FASTFOOD CHAIN EVER. Sorry subway, but I still love you.
and I forgot to blog out how I love daifuku mochi that liu-san brought for me from Japan.
ZATTAI OISHI! * Thumps up *
Today is my third day in work, and it's awesome.
For the first day, I did supply base (fries station, burger station and logistic.
Second day, I did cashier backup.. and studying the different chicken parts and service standards.
for today, I did cashier-ing with a senior backup. He is such a great cashier! But I can imagine if he gets angry, it will be the end of the world. So never make senior angry.
Other seniors were good to me too!
Remember to smile!
Hi, good evening sir, may I please take your order? Yes. The two piece meal is 6.30( is it?), would you like it to be crispy or original? Would you like to change your sides to cheese fries? Yes, that will be a additional cost of 1.50. Your drink will be pepsi? Take away or having here, sir?
Thank you! Enjoy your meal!
And remember remember to show your teeth!
*dies*
It's so hard to remember this when you are nervous. Hi, good evening! May I take your meal... OMG DID I SAY THAT.... * hide face in shame*
Tomorrow I will start work. Wish me luck.
I just came back..
What happened today was like this:
Me:Can I have a bandito pockett meal?
Indian cashier: huh, the 4.80 one ar?
Me: Yup..
Casier: pepsi?
Me: Yup... Btw, are you guys hirin'?
Cashier: Hirin? what's that?
Me: hiring...
Cashier: Hiring? .... do you want chilli or ketschup?
Me: Chilli...
Cashier: okay..
Me: I mean like high-er-ring. hiring.
Cashier * turns around and ask her colleague* : what's hiring?
Colleague: hiring... job la, she want job.. hiring...
Cashier: huh.....
Colleague: hiring... She wants a job..
Cashier:..... .... huh.... OUH.
lol.
This is really random right?
I think I would get the job, I think. Call me soon, hun.
We kinda had a quarrel before that cause meiyu don't wanna go tampines mall.. and it pissed me off cause it's totally off my plan.
Anyway, we got over it.
We met kimie at the gym ^^.
After gyming, I realized I lost my phone HU HU HU. People out there, I love all of you. So please please please leave me a miss call on tuesday. I BEG YOU. I LOVE YOU! ;____; <--- that's a crying face btw. I only realize it recently. I always thought it was a normal -.- face with two more dots.
I'm going to the polyclinic dentist and collectin my IC tomorrow.
Can you imagine not being able to sing for like 5days? Well, not possible for a fangirl like me. So I'm strainin and destroying my throat.
I'm addicted to "so sick". and ... MY THROAT IS SO FREAKING PAINFUL.
I'm drinking cups of water ever hour to keep it moist cause I keep talking and singing and I think my throat is just gonna die.
I totally don't believe the doctor when he told me it was just a sore throat. WHADDYA MEAN JUST A SORE THROAT?!
omg... I'm totally addicted to taeyang.. that bastard.
I can't stop thinking about him even though I'm suppose to hate him because he looks like a poser, acting like his usher and all that.
BUT I CAN'T GET HIM OUTTA MY MIND.
Whenever I look at somebody, I'll be thinking, oh would taeyang wear that?
AH... I'm going crazy.
Let me say Uh oh! Let me say UH OH!
His fit and all, but his totally too thin. Whenever I see him flex his body, I cringe. What, does he eat steam lean meat and tofu everyday? I am definately not attracted.
AND HIS FACE ISN'T EVEN GOOD...
WHY THE HELL AM I SO OBSESSED WITH HIM?!
I'm depressed.
I'm so shallow~ But I think it's okay. :/
I just changed my sister, my mom and my father's wallpaper to my picture..
My target is my younger brother next.. and then they will all have my wallpaper!!
While I secretly still have YunJae on mine. x)
Oh~ Meiyu and I... we are talking about a dance class,. honestly, I wanna be shindong..
If you don't know who is he, go look him up. xD
- Location:Home
- Music:Excited
Say B.I.G to the bang!
I actually think that big bang is kind of decent.
But don't you think taeyang is soooo tense here? I never quite liked taeyang.
Daesung is cute, but... No, I don't like his voice.
T.O.P.. his voice is really gritty~
I probably only like G.D.
Yes, the only reason why I like big bang is because of G.D.
No, I don't get why big bang fans go, oh, you are a dbsk fan? I dislike you!
No way~ That's really inmature! They are just idols.. I didn't befriend the person that killed your mom.
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